I feel I don't have enough motivation, without which I can't archive my goals. Lacking motivation is not always a problem for me, but it does provide a good cause to not try harder. So why I lost interest for goals? To be specific, I said I'll write a IRC game, but in fact I didn't even start, the motivation disappear once I back to home. The home is not the same place as the office, home is safer for idle. It seems I don't understand or accept the real needs for myself, or at least I don't have a consistent self. That's not strange, but I should change.